There I got married and brought my daughter Noá Zaya, the result of an abusive and almost deadly relationship for both. Back in Portugal and scared to have a child in her arms alone, I spent the first 5 months of her life working in a store.. until the day came when I realized it wasn't what I wanted for our lives.
I decided to leave this job and the "security" of a house and an entire apparent structure that our hometown offered and with it the most irrefutable job offers. And there we went, from the remote Ilha das Flores, north to south from the continent where together we were giving yoga classes, vegan food workshops and massages. We also spent a season in India, there were months in which comfort was also on the side..waking up before sunrise, sleeping on the floor and bathing in water cold were part of our daily life.Before the trip to India I launched the first digital book "Commanda a Tua Vida" where I share a little more of my journey, knowledge in yoga, healthy eating and much more. Being at selfless service, embracing motherhood 24 hours a day has been my sadhana during these last three years. Months and months without a good night's sleep, where you have to be the key, the movement and the lock of a house, a house with a lap that must always be stable and safe, a c The one that has to provide the roof, the food, the hug and the education, the lap that holds the pot that is boiling, holds the cry of a baby and a pile of clothes to be spread. It was learning to love in the midst of true chaos, at dawn when you wake up with nice butts right in the middle of your nose (go, sometimes it's your teeth too, I honestly don't know how firm and strong they are still here), where silence only exists in the immensity of a few short hours where everything ran out...Learning to breathe in moments when everything falls apart and there are no beams to hold the walls of a life that has become a fusion, this was undoubtedly one of the greatest learnings of the last years old.
Where you wake up, take a shower, physiological needs, work, fall asleep in constant fusion and that you question so many times... where is only my heart. It was taking care of a baby and later a child and teaching at the same time...a real roller coaster...
It was starting to give yoga classes and seeing Noá pulling the pants for the students. Running away from classes and sometimes just standing there and giving them affection.